Fill in the blank friday!!!

1. The best piece of advice I was ever given was........BE WHO YOU ARE NOT W HO THE WORLD WANTS you to be!!!!

2.If I had a million dollars to give to one charity..... I would give it to the orphanages.

3.If I got to choose my "last meal" it would be.....FIVE ALLS

4.My hair is ... super cute!!! Lauren just colored yesterday and it looks sooo pretty!!!

5.If at first you don't succeed.... try, try again.

6.I have always been excited about ..... traditions. I think the are important.

Thoughts

So once again this month I am not pregnant!!!!!! I hate how each month I get a little bit excited and think maybe this month it will be it. But this time around I have definetly had the guilty feeling thoughts. I know most of you wont' understand this but those of you who have lost a chld or had a miscarriage will know this. I have feeling of guilt like this is my fault. Especially cause when I first found out I was pregnant I wasn't really excited. I was scared and shocked at how fast this had happened. So it took me a bit to warm up and then finally when I was getting excited about it is when I had the miscarriage. So I am consumed with those feelings and saying this is my fault even though I know its not. And then I start asking the question why doesn't God want to send me kids yet? And I hate that. Iknow he knows what is best. And now that I actually want to have kids its very stressful. I try not think about it and try not to stress about it. Anyway I just needed to get it out. Dan has been great every month and has been soo positive. He has been such a sweetheart th rough all this. From crying one minute to saying I dont want kids its too hard. I am so glad he has been sooo understanding. I hate what a miscarriage does to you. Anyhooo one good thing that has come out of this is that I can help people who are or who have gone through it.
Anyway I know it will happen whens it supposed to. I just need to relax and calm down and feel good about it.

10 things

10 Things I am Thankful for this week!!!!!

That Dan made it to the next level and beat out the incumbent for District 9.

For the 5 bags of groceries that showed up on my door on Wednesday.... whoever did this Thank you sooo much.

For the Walmart gift card that my mom sent to help us out!!!!

For great friends who are willing to help me out.

That my friend Juliet is okay.....

That I got to have a date night with Dan and enjoy spending time together.

For my mother and law and for her helping us with Dan's schooling.

For children.....I am soo glad I have such great nephews and nieces!!!! That they are safea nd will always be loved!!!!! My heart goes out to Ethan Stacy and his dad. I can't believe anyone would do such a thing.

For Melissa and getting to spend time with her yesterday and for her Friendship.

For getting prayers answered and knowing God is listening!!!!!

Fill in the Blank Friday!!!!!

1. One fashion trend I really regret is: all the multicolored and hot pink shorts and neon things I used to wear and the big old bows.. LOL!!!!

2.The one thing that always completes any outfit is: bracelets and a cute purse!!!!

3.I would describe my personal style as: conservative... I am no the most fashionable person. But I I had more money I would hire my sister as my personal shopper and have her help me.

4.My fashion muse is....I really like Tori Spelling and Jessica Simpson for the most part.

5.If I could own one piece of designer clothing it would be.... its not clothes but the PURSES.. and the Jewelry!!!!

6.I would love to raid the wardrobe of Jessica Simpson.

7.Today I am wearing.... my pajamas :)

Fill IN THE BLANK FRIDAY(Monday)

1. The very best thing about summer is...... BBQ's, outdoor concerts, nice weather and Dan is home at night.

2. My first crush ever was.......I think in kindergarten they were twins... mike and can't remember the other name.

3.This may sound really silly but....I still love the Backstreet boys. They take me bath to my youth and how much fun it me and my sister had with our music and buying magazines.

4.I squeeze myy toothpaste from.. the middle.


5.My absolute favorite "comfort food" is.....cheese fries.

6.A random fact about me is.... I can fold my ears.

7.The one piece of techonology that I turly couldnt' live without is..... my DVR..... love my shows.

Thankful Sunday

I forgot to do this on Thursday so I am going to do it today:

I am thankful for the 25.00 check we got in the mail on saturday. It will get us through the week.

I am thankful for Dan and always giving me foot rubs and back rubs. I dont' give him nearly as many.

I am thankful for the kind man that helped Lauren, get her car towed back to her house. He was literally an angel. He was sooo nice to us.

I am thankful that Lauren is helping us out with food this week. God does look out for us.

I am thankful for how well Dan is doing in school. He works very hard and does his best. And even though we are very tight with money now its all worth it.

I am thankful for good friends who help me out. I wish I could do more for them.

I am thankful for my Hot Fudge from Leatherby's. Its sooo good.

I am thankful that my Dad was so kind and willing to help this week.

Fill in the Blank Friday

1. My favorite books growing up were: The Love Stories series and Sweet Valley High.

2.The funniest book I ever read was: cant think of one

3.The one book that has truly changed my life: Without Offense.. about criticism.

4.If you are looking for a " reall tear jerker" you should read: Any Nicholas Sparks book.

5.If I could meet any author living or dead it would be: I like my sisters idea of meeting Tori Spelling

6.The next book on my to read list: I have sooo many but probably Deadline by Claire Poulson

7.If I was snowed in at a remote cabin and could only bring three books with me I would bring:
my scriptures, Twilight Series, and autobiographies.

Dan the Candidate

Dan the MAn!!!!!!!!!

So for those of you that don't know. Dan is running for the State Board of Education. He signed up in March. He has always wanted to do it and is very passionate about schools and education. Since he works at a school as well he gets to see the ins and outs of it and what works. So yesterday we got to go to the state capitol and we had a meeting. It went over the interview questions and what he would be asked. There is 3 other people from our distric that is running. I am really proud of Dan and that he is doing this. On may 17th he has his interview to determine if he will get to continue on. I am really proud of him and hope he makes it. If not it was a great experience and he can do it next time. So if he makes it on the ballot vote ISHAM for State board. Good Luck honey!!!1

Good Weekend.

So this weekend has been a good one. It started on Thursday night when me and my friend Marianne and her sister and friend went and saw the movie the BackUp Plan. It was pretty cute They main guy in there is pretty cute. Then I got to see Marianne's new house in Eagle Mountain. It was reallly nice and fun.
Then the next morning we got to go to BYU Women's conference. It was very nice and the classes we chose were exactly what I needed. One of my favorite classes was I am Thankful to be me. It talked about how women usually compare themselves to others and how it does not benefit you to do so. And that is something I have always struggled with. Also it talked about being positive and thinking positive. I needed to hear this since its been really hard to stay positive when I am not pregnant each month. I realize I need to feel good about myself and not let thoughts or comparisons get to me. Also I realized i need to do more service. Service is the key to happiness. I am going to start actively looking for more ways I can serve no matter how small it seems.
It was a reallly good day. Then that night after I was done i spent the the weekend watching my sisters kids so she can have a little vacation. It has been a fun weeknend , a tiring one but fun. We had some good adventures and played lots. They are really good kids and are soo much fun to be with. I am glad I was able to help out my sister and spend the weekend with the kiddies.